The Hangover
Please note. This is not a sour
grapes post, meant to be incendiary or otherwise agitating. I am not looking for a fight, however I
wouldn’t be opposed to any proactive debates.
I know some think that the time to be civil is over, to which I suggest
going back to your own little world and continue thinking that you are always
right, there is nothing wrong with you, and you should never challenge your own
views.
After the appalling display from some this week on both sides, I would
advise against reading this if you are feeling overly emotional about the
results of the 2016 presidential election.
I am not hardwired for emotional sensitivity and my form of empathy
comes from wanting to understand problems and look for solutions. My brain loves to analyze the way people make
decisions, and this is my theory on what the hell happened.
I also will let you know that I attempted a more subjective approach
this time around. I realize that at
nearly 5000 words, this is a long one. I
don’t address every single issue in this post, and if you are curious to what
my particular stance is on any issue, please feel free to ask in the
comments. Because my intention is not to
be upsetting, I would appreciate NOT
sharing this post over social media, at least until the dust settles. I’m not in the business of telling people
what to think, and in a subjective approach, I am merely stating what I think.
In all active political debates, I have tried to remain respectful, even when
not treated with respect, this is not the place I will be.
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Part One: Pregame: The evil of two lessers.
Monday came, and I had election fever. I kept seeing Hitler posts. Email posts.
Dead people in Benghazi posts, Concentration Camp posts, the dead Syrian
child posts. I was engulfed in the
frenzy. It is easy to forget that I
cannot recall a time in my life where an election affected my life in one way
or another, but I can always count on the media to get a good panic going. I consider the above a privilege and a blessing,
and not really a blanket statement that can be applied to all Americans. However, this
one was different. People had legitimate
concerns about the two candidates and it seemed that no one was willing to stop
inciting destructive rhetoric. I felt
overwhelmed. I took a deep breath, and
posted what I believed was the case, and will always be the case. In case you missed it...
One thing to remember,
America has never been nor will be great because of its government.
It
is and always will be great because of its people.
The
people demanded every major change that has made this a more perfect union.
Government,
by definition of necessity is the last stand for the status quo. It needs to
be. We just need to demand that it be better than what we are getting.
I
have done my fair share of griping about the shitshow tomorrow, but all in all,
I haven't really been demanding better than what we have been getting. I hope
this is a wake-up call that we need to be more active in what we want from our
leaders.
Regardless of what affiliation you belong to,
if you hate what we have to do, remember that we can discuss Caitlin Jenner,
Kanye vs Taylor, and all the other bullshit that doesn't matter in the long
run, but until we demand more from our press, our leaders, and our media, be
prepared for more nasty elections that feel like a hyperbolic metaphor of
wrestlers talking to each other.
The Monday before the election, a very good friend of mine
sent me a private conversation making the case to consider changing my vote
using an argument that appealed to my reason and not my emotions. If you want to get something done with me,
you would know that I prefer a rational approach and would more sincerely
consider that over a push towards the feels.
I don’t trust my emotions and prefer to keep myself on neutral ground.
My vote was since the nomination of the two candidates going
to Gary Johnson. Someone whom I agreed
with 81% on the issues, more than the two major parties, 39% Trump (Some
economic issues, Reducing involvement in the UN and NATO), and 31% Clinton (Social
issues/ I actually believe in climate change, but disagree with the Democrat’s
proposed solutions.) However, I did not want Trump, and I
certainly did not want Pence.
I am a registered Republican. I typically vote on economic issues because I
don’t think that Congress has the backbone to actually do anything at all about
social issues, and will defer to the Supreme Court because they don’t twitter
and equally important, don’t have to face reelection. This is critical in my thinking. I have a hard time sleeping. I didn’t think Hillary was going to beat
Trump (Something I had said during the election, despite hearing about Polls
and double digit leads and red states turning blue.) I didn’t particularly care for her as a
candidate or as a person, but more so, I thought at best case scenario, she
would be the typical politician, pass a couple of watered down earmarked bills,
not really enact any sort of change, and ensure the protections recently
granted for gay people, something I strongly believe in. Basically, a continuation of the last 16
years, probably longer, though my activity and objectivity were fledgling
before that.
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Part Two: Beer, now there’s a temporary solution.
Tuesday morning, I wake up.
I get Olive ready for school, and we leave to go to the polls before she
goes to school and me to work. It was a
bitter ass cold day, much like the one she was born on 5 years ago today. There is hardly a line, and I am at the polls
in about 5 minutes, mostly because they struggle to spell my last name and find
me in the books.
I’m taken over to the polling station by a very friendly
man, and put next to a woman with 2 daughters, as well as Olivia staying behind
me, messing around on my phone.
I’m proud to say that I’ve never voted straight party in my
entire life. This year would go the
same. But, the first question was
President of the United States. It was
not the thing I was looking forward to.
United States Senator, yes, but President. Being a nonconformist, I first picked Pat
Toomey for Senator. He was the main
reason I was showing up at all, plus a former client of mine was running for state
senator and I wanted to support him.
But the first screen is always the hardest. It lures me in with the straight party
option, of which I always ignore, but the presidency is hard. I think of myself and what my values are,
what my opinions are about how things should run, and where I would like to see
the country go. I select Gary
Johnson. It’s my brain saying that I
should support the candidate I believe in, even if he wasn’t going to win. Olivia is behind me and I don’t hear the
Barbie Magic Makeup game going on. I
panic, and I look behind me and she’s already moved on. I see the woman with two kids. I unselect Gary Johnson, and I vote for
Hillary Clinton. I felt like I was in a
teachable moment, and I wanted to find which lesson it was that I was trying to
teach myself and my daughter.
After the drama of the first screen, I make considerably
easier decisions. Republican for Auditor
General, Democrat for Treasurer, Constitution for State Senator. I pretty much voted across the board. I actually like gridlock and people forced to
work together. I feel when I’m
optimistic about politics, the best work gets done because everything and
everyone is in check. Though, if memory
serves me correctly, the past elections there has been a lot of gridlock and
bullheadedness. Sometime, maybe even
always, politics became less about leadership and ideas and more a game or team
sport, obsessed with winning on its own team’s goals. That works in branding, but not in a country
that is diverse, and certainly not one that is divided.
I get my confirmation, and I get the hell out of there. I stop at Rite Aid where I parked and get a
soda for my lunch. I feel physically
ill. Liv and I get in the car, and in
her own way, she can tell that I’m a man unhinged. She asks me what’s making me sad. I tell her that I made a difficult
decision. She asks “is this about the
election?”
“Yes” I tell her.
“Daddy is feeling conflicted about his vote, and I don’t know what to
think.”
“Did you vote for Gary Johnson?”
“No. I voted for
Hillary Clinton.”
“Why did you change your mind?”
“Because Daddy knew that Gary Johnson wasn’t going to
win. Remember when Daddy ran the store?”
“Yes.”
“Well, when daddy ran the store, he had to hire people. The election is similar to that. We hire who is going to be in charge of
important jobs in our country. One thing
Daddy had to do is hire people he didn’t agree with, and didn’t agree with me. It wasn’t that they were bad people, but I
have my own priorities. This election,
the person who best met my priorities was Gary Johnson. However, Gary Johnson was not going to
win. I don’t like Donald Trump, as you
know. I don’t like Hillary Clinton
either. However, Daddy recognizes that Ms. Clinton would more likely be a better
president than Donald Trump, and possibly Gary Johnson. Sometimes, when you grow up, you have to
recognize that you aren’t going to get along with everyone, but you need to
make decisions based on who is right for the job.”
“Okay. Can I have your phone?”
In my mind, I justified my
action. I am in a battleground state,
even though PA always goes blue and it is a fool’s errand to try to go
red. My head is killing me, and I went
through feeling some sort of shame for selling out at the last minute to the
candidate that I related to the least. I
remember when the primaries and debates started, and I said good thing for me
is that there are literally only 2 people I would never vote for. Her and Trump.
But here I was, voting for
someone who I didn’t like, didn’t trust, and didn’t relate to. Furthermore, in one of the great missteps of
all time, she did not bother to reach out to center right republicans who were
freaked the hell out by Trump. More on
that later.
I am looking at the clock,
feeling the tensions rise, and anxiously awaiting a drink or 6. I proceed to have said drink, and I look at
the flatscreen and see that DT was in the lead, but more importantly, he was
winning Michigan, Ohio, Florida, and New Hampshire, and end up going to my
buddie’s house to watch Tombstone
which is an awesome movie that I almost always forget how much I love it. We go back to the polls and it doesn’t look
good for Clinton. I’m drunk at this
point. I get choked up, thinking that
Trump was going to be president. I feel
the shame again for voting for Clinton, and selling out, but I was concerned
about the world and for friends and family.
Then, by a sheer stroke of
randomness, I see that one of my favorite movies was on, and frequent reference
to most political conversations I have, Richard Pryor’s masterful Brewster’s Millions. I watch and sober up, as it finishes, the
election is called for Trump. I head
home after a cigarette.
I woke up for work, left in
enough time to get a red bull and went to work.
Trying to figure out why this happened.
I started listing reasons in my head. And outloud, dropping F bombs left
and right. I was pretty angry. Mercifully, I took a break from social media,
because I didn’t want to see it. But I
was curious. I got to work, did my job, and
went out for my break. It was a bitter
ass cold day, and none of my smoker buddies were outside, so I went on Facebook.
I was fucking appalled.
Here it was, grown ass adults,
acting like children. It didn’t matter
which side you were on. I thought that
people would be mad, or whatever, but this was a full grown panic. Riots.
People being outlandish dicks to other people. I expected people to be disappointed, I
expected some gloating. However, this
was different. This was special,
especially considering most people on either side of the fence wanted someone
different in the semifinals.
I started thinking of my
election analysis that I do for every presidential election, and trying to
figure things out. My conclusions are to
be as followed.
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Part 3 – The Hangover
How the hell did she lose to him?
That was the first question I
asked. For someone who billed themselves
as a Washington professional, she sure didn’t know shit about running a
campaign, which is doubly awful because she also ran before for the office and
lost, she barely campaigned. If there is
a silver lining to all of this, she spent nearly double, raised nearly double
and still lost. I guess you can’t buy an
election after all.
One of my criticisms of her,
when I was making my blanket statement stating that I will not vote for him or
her, was that she often felt disingenuous when discussing issues. Which is strange because most of those issues
are her taking what essentially is her party’s position. It is true that Bernie Sanders pushed her
left, and it was obvious that was not her comfort zone.
I can see that her defeat was
clearly a matter of missteps. She had
the possibility of turning some red states blue, but the opposite
happened. In some ways, that was what I
was expecting to happen towards the end.
Though, certain things were bothering me. Essentially, I was expecting her to court
conservatives whom were not thrilled with their nominee. She is essentially a conservative when it
comes to trade. She was for, then
against, then for again the TPP. It
would be obvious that she was going to have to defend NAFTA, when free trade is
a traditionally republican stance. She
did not.
The essential argument that
remained at the end of the election was Trump was a racist and sexist, and she
was not, well, at least not anymore. She
did not do press conferences, which I found strange because essentially the
press was doing her dirty work for her at this point, and she assumed she was
going to win. That brings me to the
800lb. gorilla.
Why I think Trump won.
Wednesday morning, I felt like I was drunk on bullshit, and all my medias were
spinning. What an embarrassing
loss. Was America a racist country? I started forming my ideas on what
happened. The courting of frustrated
republicans like myself was the key that would unlock what I felt was basically
the surprise of my life. I don’t think
it would have been possible if I didn’t change my mind and vote for her. If I would have voted for Johnson, my
conscience would have been clear, but I was interested in finding out why my
emotions were so high that I betrayed my conscience and what I believe is right.
I made a decision for my
daughter, for an ill-informed reason.
The birther thing, the white supremacists supporting this man, the
sexist comments (of which I feel there still is not a good excuse for), I realized
that I found him so dislikable that I barely put myself in a position to
accurately judge this person, and did not research his stances, his character
outside of media spin, and essentially look for enough outside complete talks
or assume that the messages have been presented unaltered.
The thing is, I am a big fan of
context. I believe that the media
commonly attempts to manipulate us. This
is important for a later point. Things
that would have been obvious to me were so rare, and I believe that there was a
larger, bigger attempt in spreading the salacious and the scandalous nature of
our opponents. More people were
spreading articles about Nazi’s. Nazi’s. Saying we were at America’s critical point
and juncture, and this would be a time for I say, to take out the trash.
I was saying that the Republican
Party, of which I am a member was doing the things that I hate more than
anything. It was being exclusive, not
inclusive. It was promoting rampant
homophobia. Then, there is Mike Pence,
human nightmare (a position I still hold to this day.)
The thing is, was Trump really
racist?
Or
was this simply a maneuver that did not work well in 2008.
Was Trump homophobic?
Then I started to try to look at things
objectively.
Donald Trump polled the
worst with Evangelicals, similar to Mitt Romney.
It was clear that the Evangelicals wanted Ted
Cruz, judging by the numbers.
The
Evangelicals want a blatant Theocrat, and when Romney picked Paul Ryan as a
running mate, the evangelicals pretty much jumped ship and did not show
up.
RINOs don’t get the votes.
I disagree the most in party with people like
that.
In this election cycle, it was not
uncommon to hear an Evangelical say something like
I hope that something happens to Trump so that Mike Pence can be
president. It is no secret that I
disconnect with the Evangelicals in my party, despite being both Christian and
Republican.
Donald Trump won this election
because he did exactly what I have wanted Republicans to do, run a campaign
that was inclusive. I know that isn’t
the story that people expect, but objectively looking at the groups he targeted
and campaigned to, he spent a great deal of his time in talking to groups that
traditionally did not vote Republican. He
went to labor unions, he went to cities that always go blue from the city where
I grew up, Erie, which hasn’t gone “red” in forever, to Detroit, one of the
bluest cities in America. He spoke to
groups that were LGBTQ, proudly holding up the rainbow equality flag. He even became the first republican presidential
candidate to have an openly gay man speak at his convention, not only that,
Peter Thiel was his keynote speaker. Not
only that, he went to Mexico. It isn’t
like Hillary Clinton went to a megachurch or an NRA meeting. This being said, he did not make the fatal
mistake of not choosing someone that the Evangelical’s wanted when you are not
that person, so he did not abandon a large part of the party, and it worked. More minority groups voted for Trump than any
Republican candidate since Reagan. I
started to think that I probably should have voted for him.
Given the current climate, I
realize that it is not a popular opinion, however realizing that he did what I
have been begging Republicans to do, I really should have been more objective and
open minded; which something I particularly dislike about both political
parties, there are no open minds, objectivity, or attempts at unity. In the long run, my vote for Clinton didn’t
really matter. I made the decision on
behalf of my daughter. If anything, I
try to be a good father, and it wasn’t like he made the choice easy. He said some and has allegations of doing some
awful stuff, in particular about women.
He was and probably still is a pig. Granted, that has never been a point
in particular that I ever voted on, and I assume comes with the territory. I can’t get too upset about disrespect to
women when the opposition is married to a guy who put a cigar in a woman’s
vagina, and then was impeached partially for perjury and obstruction of justice
in a sexual harassment lawsuit. I
understand that her marriage is clearly not a traditional one. I would still vote for Kennedy, and I would
consider voting for FDR, although I don’t particularly know much about his
opposition, like I do about Nixon. I
would still vote for Clinton over Dole, and I am too young to remember the
particulars of the 92 election and the presidency of George HW Bush. I realize that I focused on sex scandals of
Democratic Presidents, as it turns out, I don’t know of Republican presidential
sex scandals. Theirs usually involve
corruption and power, such as Iran Contra, Halliburton, etc. Those are usually a higher probability of
shifting my vote.
I realize that is a bit controversial,
but then goes the issue of racism. As
the above link to the 2008 article from the Huffington Post, it was obvious
that Hillary would have to turn the story about Republican racism. Racist groups were given a megaphone and
complied with the orders of being repulsive.
However, Trump never addressed it, as they said. However, it was CNN and ABC validating and
normalizing hate groups. Which wasn’t
that hard to find when you had the primary opposing party candidates being a
New York City Liberal woman and a Jewish Socialist in an era where we have to
be reminded that Black Lives Matter. Of
course they would be out in large numbers.
While I agree that Stop and
Frisk was a big reason to not vote for him, considering I am not into illegal
search and seizure, the constitution does matter to me, I also have concerns
that communities have issues with crime.
Ultimately, the murder toll in Chicago is reason enough we really need
to assess what we are willing to allow in the country. I don’t think the answer is easy, and I don’t
know what it is. When crime rates are
high, it creates awful conditions for education, which leads to more
crime. I don’t know what the answer
is. I do however, like his inner city
career training, job programs, and policy of Law and Order.
To continue the racist claims,
some of which are warranted, and some of which are not, comes to
immigration. I see in the past few days
that he is going to continue President Obama’s policy of deporting any
undocumented immigrant that is found guilty of a crime. I agree with that policy, and I believe that
it is correct. Deportation is one of two
ethical choices, amnesty being the other.
What is unethical is what has been the case for a very long time, being
under President Bush or President Obama, which is to not vote on one or the other, and continue to
allow people to live as phantoms only to be exploited. I see the argument to both, but
unfortunately, it isn’t politically expedient to vote on those solutions. While some hold the broken promise to
establish citizenship, or a path to citizenship, Hillary didn’t say amnesty,
and Trump said deportation, I at least admire for making a decision on policy.
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The Reconciliation.
Regardless of this, going on
4000 words here. I am not thrilled about
President Trump, even though I feel like I did not accurately judge him, but I
appreciate what I did not even realize what was going on. I remain cautiously optimistic on further
investigation. The fact remains, I’m a
progressive Libertarian like Gary Johnson.
I believe in focusing on our nation, not getting involved in wars,
protecting civil liberties, and defending all parts of the constitution.
In further exploring what I
believe to be the case, I sincerely hope that President Trump is better than
Candidate Trump. That his focus is truly
making this country great again for all Americans. I hope that he is successful. The one thing that I am somewhat relieved
about is that his presidency will be under a microscope. As the press really did not do their jobs
over Washington failure (both in the Executive and Legislative branches). I for one am planning attempting to clean up
my party, to call my senators and representatives. You can do the same here.
He has the potential to be
disgraced or admired. What he does now
is out of my hands. I hope that he is sincere
about draining the swamp, and I certainly hope that he starts with McConnell
and Ryan. He took down 16 other
republican candidates, some of whom I liked, some of whom I didn’t. He took on the biggest political machine of
all time who outraised and outspent him 2:1.
I hope that he is as smart as I am starting to think that he is.
Going forward, things I would
like to see:
1.
That he survives his entire term and Mike Pence never becomes president.
2.
That he stops saying stupid things about women.
3.
That he gets term limits for all elected
officials, and implements the “No Compete” clause that elected official cannot
work as a lobbyist or consultant for a foreign entity for life, and for a
domestic firm for 5 years after leaving office.
4.
That he doesn’t get us involved in more wars.
5.
That his Supreme Court picks aren’t terrible.
6.
That he successfully renegotiates NAFTA and
meets his campaign promise to withdraw from TPP
7.
That we have an overhaul of immigration and
takes a model similar to that of Canada (which is pretty much his plan.)
8.
That he ends Off Shoring Act
9.
That he is successful with his repatriotizing
plan.
10.
That he finds a way to deal with Ryan and
McConnell. It was criminal what those
two did against President Obama.
11.
That he continues to practice inclusivity within
the Republican Party
12.
That he is successful in amending or replacing
the Affordable Care Act.
13.
That he pushes through his inner city
development plan to improve education, career training, and jobs program.
14.
That he realizes that not all Democrat ideas are
terrible, and works to push through some of their agenda as well.
15.
That he realizes that he barely won, and he did
because people are trusting him to do the job.
16.
That he works to end the influence and pettiness
of partisanship, that no party has an exclusivity on good or bad ideas, and
despite the claims of each other, no party is evil.
17.
That he does spend the money going to the UN
Climate fund on environmental projects here, as well as rebuilds our water
infrastructure.
18.
That he does get his wish to rebuild infrastructure.
19.
That he gains the temperament and respect of the
leader of the free world. (Not holding
my breath.)
20.
That he uses his salesmanship to get the best
ideas.
1.
Keep a watchful eye to make sure that civil
liberties are not being violated.
2.
Be more involved in my senators and
representatives lives. Make phone calls,
send emails. Have a general idea of what
is being voted on.
3.
Be sure to champion bipartisanship. Make sure that I acknowledge democrat’s ideas
that I believe in. Look for common
ground to rebuild after the nightmare that was.
4.
Be sure to call out republican
obstructionism. Encourage the common
ground issues to build better relationships within.
5.
Thoroughly research candidates.
6.
Call out biased reporting whenever I see it, be
it from Fox on the right or CNN on the left.
7.
Try not to be dismissive of opinions differing from
my own
8.
Continue to defend the policies of President
Obama in which I agree.
9.
Continue to vocalize my dissent from Republican
Party policies that I dissent. One of my
major gripes post-election was the complete blind eye to the problems the
candidate people sided with. I was very
much aware of Trump’s flaws, however most people dismissed the concerns with
Secretary Clinton.
10.
Continue practicing kindness, respect and
tolerance.
Regardless of how you voted this
election, I hope that you can at least have an open mind about the results, and
stop attacking supporters (that are not affiliated with a hate group). It was my intention to offer a form of
optimism with this post. As stated
prior, there is a whole lot of negative bullshit going on. This country succeeds or fails based on being
able to work together. Many on my side
of the fence have failed to live up to that, I will fully support any attempt
to remove those people from office. I
hope that you do the same.
Respectfully,
Paul of the Future.